So I still haven't kissed Andrea. I am pretending (I think) for everyone around me that the reason I haven't kissed her is because I like her so much... because I really want it to mean something. Maybe in some way I think she'll think that too, I don't know, but that's not the reason. If I am being completely honest, it's because I am scared!
I think it's kind of funny that the last girl I kissed I just drove to Wendy's and mounted her in the parking lot of a fast food restaurant. There was no fear. Now, I want to kiss this girl like I want to be a millionaire, and yet I am petrified to make a move.
Just last night I drove her home. She lives way in the heck out in Eagle Mountain. I like that, because it gives us a lot of extra time to talk. I certainly enjoy conversation, especially with her. Anyway I walked her to her doorstep, and we hugged. Then as I was saying goodnight and walking away, she grabbed my hand and asked me when we were hanging out again. We ended up sitting on her front step talking and snuggling for another half an hour. I could tell she didn't want me to go. I think she wanted me to kiss her, too... but I just froze.
I don't know what I'm afraid of. She likes me, I like her. I want to kiss her. She is no doubt frustrated that I haven't kissed her. Regardless of all of that I just lose every ounce of testicular fortitude when a moment arrives that we can kiss. Why?!
I have told my roommies that I am going to kiss her on the 7th date... no matter what. Friday was 3, Saturday was 4, and Monday was 5. That pretty much means this weekend... Hopefully until then I can build up the courage and brave the mockery of my roommates. Aaron has kissed 5 girls in the last month which is making me look fairly pathetic. Calvin is worried that by not kissing her, I am going to mess it up with Andrea. Man oh man did she look hot at work today! Ugh, guess we'll see what the weekend brings.