This post sucks

It has been well over a month now since Andrea and I last spoke. Per our agreement I sat around anxious and nervous that she would call or text me. She didn't. For the next few days I found myself pretty disappointed. I really didn't want us to get back together, I don't think. I just wasn't quite prepared for her to actually move on. Over the past couple days though, I have thought about it. I'm glad she has moved on I hope it's because she has met someone and that she is happy.

Still I find myself comparing other girls I get close to, to Andrea.

Sanders and I spent the entire weekend together. She got in on Friday night. We went and saw a movie. Before the movie started Sanders says, "So who's legs are more attractive? Mine, Renee's, or Hot Becca's?" I'm pretty sure the look on my face was priceless, I knew instantly that somehow she had seen who I sent the texts too from the night before besides her. I knew this because I had saved Becca's number in my phone under "Hot Becca". "Wha--?" I started to say as she smacked me accross the chest. "You think I'm stupid?" She laughed "Don't be sending me the same texts you send your other girls." I started to try and dig myself out of the whole I was in but she continued to interupt me. "Didn't you know that we can see who else a text is sent to now?" She seemed like she was less upset than she was baffled at my ignorance.

I explained that I did not in fact know that. If you send a mass text to some people depending on their service and the type of phone they have they can see all of the recipients that you sent that text too besides them. My phone with AT&T did not show anyone who a text was sent too. Lisa was with Sprint, who apparently added the feature 6-9 months ago. I have since found out that people with T-Mobile can also see the other recipients. I'm sure there are more and that it depends on the type of phone one has... but this is very important information that I have thus far been unable to discover anything about on the internet. Beware.

So Lisa and I chatted for a bit about my mass text and I quickly brought up Beau and my awkward little introduction. She said something rather profound I think, something that makes me like her even more. "Look Jake, I like you, that's obvious, and I am happy to compete because I expect the kind of guy that I would like to be liked by others. If there weren't other girls trying for your attention I probably wouldn't be interested." I thought she was getting at the thrill of competition, but when I brought that up she countered, "No, I don't want to compete. I just recognize that that is part of dating, especially when I want to date the good ones. It stands to reason that everyone else will want to good ones too." It was like she had flipped a switch on in my mind. She was right. She was smart.

She further made the point that she just expected me to be honest with her and made me promise not to share any more of her texts with my other girls. I promised her I would. Then I remember thinking that she was forward and communicated really well just like Andrea.

I'm sorry that this post sucks. It's not funny and hardly informative. I had so much to write too. We hung out most all of Saturday, and Sunday. I had a funny story to tell about President Monson showing up at a rest home Ward Lisa and I went too. Also an interesting exchange that Becca and I had which pretty much ensures I'll never talk to her again... all of that and this is the garbege I come up with.

My excuse is the same as every other 20 something student. Finals. Calvin is asleep and can't even proofread this for me because he has a huge test early tomorrow morning. I have my share of studying and testing to do this week too so this is all you get for now.

Jake